Never thought it would be me Living in a shattered dream How could this be the end for me? What I wouldn’t give to have A life to live, a day to plan Instead I’ll be forever seventeen Could have lived out every dream Could have been most anything Can someone wake me up? I haven’t lived yet I’m only seventeen God, did you forget I’m just a baby? And I don’t wanna be Forever seventeen _____ It all seems like a dream, you know. One of those nightmares that keep on going and going and there’s nothing you can do to escape it. That’s how it feels. I always did my best to not be blinded by the false security Kyp Durron always seemed to be living. I guess we all somewhat became feeble to that frame of mind without our knowledge. But I know for sure that’s not why I’m here, watching over you my Tahiri. When the amphistaff came down into my side, life seemed to swirl around me in a haze but even then, with the agony, I could hear your pain. Just feeling it brush me slightly breaks my heart. Having it flow throughout my entire soul was unbearable. “ANAKIN!” your scream came from both your voice and the Force. I longed to call out to you, but sometimes life doesn’t intend us to say goodbyes. You know what else, Tahiri? I’m glad I never said goodbye because I’m never going to leave your side. I pray that you’ll realize this truth. I can see you crying over my body. Tahiri, I’m calling for you, but your hurting so much you can’t hear me through the Force. If you only knew that I was just right here. Just look up. I’m here. You don’t turn around, though I can feel your anguish like you and I were one. Then again, now that I think about it, we are one and always will be. Oh, Tahiri. Did you even know that once you’re one with the Force that tears can still sting your eyes? Yeah, who’d of thought, tears after death. But their not only for me. I’m crying for us, Tahiri. For you. _____ I’ll never have a bed to make A test to take, a summer day I’ll always be forever seventeen Could have had a family If things had worked out differently Instead I’ll be forever seventeen Could I have just one more day A chance to learn from my mistakes Can someone wake me up? I haven’t lived yet I’m only seventeen God, did you forget I’m just a baby? And I don’t wanna be Forever seventeen _____ You know what I was thinking? Of what we might have been. I know, I know. Thinking like this will bound to end me up in a heap of only more heartbreak, but you’re not the only one who needs to get this out. If I was in my body right now, you know what I would do? Besides kissing you everywhere… I’d be asking the one most important question that I was planning on putting to you, and well… umm… Force, who would have thought it was even hard to find the words to tell you that I love you? Well, the reason is because you’re so beautiful inside and out. Tahiri, I love you. And there’s something I wish for you to know, even though I know you’ll find out in a few months… ***** Tahiri Veila held the dirty cloak that was still on Anakin’s body close to hers and began to cry again for him. For her Ani. Tears flowed freely from her bloodshot eyes. The pain was horrible, but she was to numb with sorrow and grief. Why? she thought hopelessly. Why did you have to leave me Anakin? I loved you, and you were the only who could keep me from falling. Suddenly, his familiar presence began to seep into her soul. He was here. Pushing herself up off the floor she turned and saw a faint figure of Anakin hovering not far away. “Oh, my Force…” more tears began to cascade down her swollen cheeks. She did her best to brush them away only to clear the path for more the fall down. 'Can you hear me?' All the fifteen year old could do was blink back in response not believing what she was seeing or hearing. Was this all another horrible flash back? Another nightmare of what she longed for? Pressing her lips together, Tahiri refused to believe the impossible. 'You’re shaking.' The forbidden voice echoed in the empty room. “You’re not there!” she screamed. “You’re just a dream, only apart of my imagination.” Tears welded up in Anakin’s soul. 'Sometimes I wish this all were a dream. I miss you so much Tahiri.' The realization that it was really Anakin shook her. Suddenly Tahiri felt horribly sick to her stomach. Her knees buckled underneath her and everything around her began to spin as she felt a wave of nausea sweep over her. _____ In a matter of a moment Life fell before my eyes And now I’m looking at the meaning of The miracle of life Where are we going without even knowing His love The answer is deep inside _____ 'When you fell onto your knees, I felt my soul rush to your aid only to give you comfort in your time of pain. I know what caused you to be sick. I know half of it’s my fault, but I don’t see how we can blame anyone for this. If you must though, blame me for not living long enough to be physically by your side while you go through this. 'Tahiri, I need to tell you something, but the way you began crying once you realized it was me, I don’t think that you can manage the truth right now. Though I know you’ll find out sooner or later. I use the Force to caress your spirit against mine trying to comfort you and your pains. If you were not on this skip right now, it’d be morning on Yavin you know? 'The pain has gone from your body. Of course I can feel it, but you’re still clutching your stomach keeping your head tucked in between your legs. What can I say Tahiri to calm your restless spirit? I’m sorry will never be enough, even I know that. I’ll just stay with you, brushing your soul with mine. Please say something… I need to hear your voice one more time as these tears fall from my eyes.' ***** She took four deep breaths before she sat up on her knees hoping what she felt and saw was only a dream, but at the same time begged that it was. Her eyes filled up with Anakin’s soft caring face, yet his appearance was more of a mere ghostlike Holo but almost tangible. “You really over did it this time.” Tahiri said trying to lighten the mood but kept her face serious. The sound of her voice startled Anakin for she thought she saw a tear falling down his face. 'Did what?' “Make a girl’s insides flutter, but this time you made mine stir a bit too much.” She laughed. A grin surpassed his face as a pang of reality jabbed at him through the Force. “What is it?” Dread filled her face. “It's why you’re here isn’t it. Tell me Anakin!” Looking deep into her soul, Anakin didn’t need to stretch far in the Force to feel another glimmer of life radiate from Tahiri’s body. So small and nearly faint. Lifting up his hand Anakin covered Tahiri’s hands and took a deep breath. You want the fluffed version, or the straight facts? “Anakin?” her voice threatened lingering on anger. 'You’re pregnant.' Tahiri could only hang her mouth open, her heart began to pound furiously. “No…” 'I’m so sorry Tahiri.' “No,” she shook off his apology. “Why are you saying such a thing? I love you Anakin. I’m the one who’s sorry that you won’t be able to be with us.” She looked down at her stomach. “I guess that would be why I’ve been sick lately,” Tahiri mumbled. 'You have no idea how much I prayed that we would one day grow up and raise a family, but not like this. Not alone…' His whispers in her soul seemed to cry out in pain. Stretching her arm out towards him, Tahiri saw him crying again, and was shocked. “So, we’re kinda young. We can’t change the past,” she finally admitted though with all her heart she had wished she could. “I’m sorry you had to go through death alone.” The remark stunned him. 'Alone? What do you mean?' “You gave up so much, for so many. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you when you passed into… into the Force.” 'But I wasn’t alone. You were always with me and I’ll never leave you. This is all like a horrible nightmare. I’m only seventeen. And now… forever will I be. ' Tears streamed down Tahiri’s fair face as she listened to the words he spoke. It broke her heart to hear Anakin talk that way, but she too felt like someone forgot about them. About their love. “I make a vow to you Anakin.” Her words caused him to lift his head and look into her soul once again. “I vow I won’t give up on our child as long as you won’t give up on me.” 'I would never give up on you.' he paused as something flickered through him and the Force. ***** I’m watching you yet again, for the last time. I know you can feel my presence hovering over you as you give birth to our little girl. And finally it’s over… and you’re crying yet again, but this time tears of joy holding our daughter closely in your arms. She has fine golden hair like you, but my eyes. Something I know will melt your heart once she meets her true love one day, but now she’s just a little baby. I can see Cilghal rush over and help our infant and the next thing I can tell she’s being stuck into a small breathing unit next to your bed, Tahiri. Already, I know the frightening reality, but I promised I wouldn’t give up on either of you. And I’m not going to break my last vow to you. Leaning forward, I smile and kiss my soul on the foreheads of the two most important woman I ever will remember in my life. At last, I brush my presence against yours and my little princess telling you it will be ok. _____ So don’t give up You haven’t lived yet You’re only seventeen And God did not forget You’re just a baby